AWP 2014: No Shame for Women Writers

March 4, 2014 § 8 Comments


awp seattleA guest post on the panel “Breaking Silences: Women’s Memoir as an Act of Rebellion” from Tabitha Blankenbiller:

It feels like everyone goes to AWP looking for something.

Perhaps it’s a check mark on a list, one of those must-haves that we’re told we must shore up before our careers will take off. An MFA, an agent, a Tweet that nabs you 1,000 followers. Then there’s my demographic, those who are beginning to lose faith at one of the dozens of steep inclines in the process, and wander the convention center imploring each room for a sign.

When I sat for the panel “Breaking Silences: Women’s Memoir as an Act of Rebellion,” I was doubting my memoir manuscript. It’s being shopped, and over the past few weeks there’s been a harmonic chord of the same no: what great work! Too bad there’s not enough platform. I was doubting the validity of my experiences and their relevance. I hadn’t promised my boyfriend that I’d make him 300 sandwiches for an engagement ring, and I wasn’t on “The Office.” A tendril of shame was rooting in my heart; the embarrassment of sharing stories that weren’t good enough. That my life on the page wasn’t worthy.

There was a humming, static verve in Room 607. The energy of a packed house fed up with expectations and niches and double standards, impatient for stories to be elevated by bravery and beauty and merit rather than the shelves of gender, race, and age we’ve been forced to inherit. Each woman on the panel had fearlessly written her own truths, despite the anger, discomfort, and squeamishness they’d caused the patriarchal literary establishment. The collective hunger for a revolution was electric.

When Anna March implored us to give up shame for telling stories, I felt my heart’s hinges squeak open. “Don’t get pushed into an arc,” she said. Women’s memoir is an internal journey that we share, and doesn’t have to be Julie and Julia-style or Lifetime special-ready. “Life is a lot messier than that.” Reading women’s memoir makes women and their lives visible no matter the commonality or grandeur of their experience, which is a powerful act.

Kate Hopper echoed the sentiment when she described her obstacles of writing about motherhood, a subject big publishing does not often consider worthy of literature. It’s shoved into patronizing genres like “mom-oir” and we begin to believe what we’re told about our stories not mattering. She felt fear blossoming as the shame of her experience—a woman’s experience—set in. The same noxious weed I felt inside of myself. “We become shameful, not shameless,” she warned.

Connie Mae Fowler, in the panel’s closing, pointed out that there is no section of the bookstore called “men’s lit” or, to the room’s delight, “dick lit.” No man describes his work as “confessional.” He doesn’t have to. As women memoir writers, it’s essential to keep kicking out of the box, the narrow shelf, to refuse to shut up. “Victims must keep secrets. Rebellion and ascension require storytelling.”

Although I had another 48 hours left in Seattle, I could have left AWP on these warrior writer’s words and had exactly the reawakening to continue the fight. Judging from the panel’s delirious applause, I was hardly alone. I refuse to apologize again for my book, even in my head. I will keep churning out words and reading those of other women writers. I will kick until my legs fall off.

Tabitha Blankenbiller is a graduate of the Pacific University MFA program who currently lives in Tucson, Arizona. Her work has been featured in journals such as HobartBarrelhouse, and Brevity, and her memoir-in-essays Paper Bag: Tales of Love, Beauty, and Baggage is represented by Penumbra Literary.

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§ 8 Responses to AWP 2014: No Shame for Women Writers

  • This is so true! My book about seven years as an in home caregiver for my mentally and physically ill father-in-law is receing positivve rejections.
    “This is an important book, but not right for us.” The platform is huge with millions of caregivers in the US alone and the number is growing. But, publishers can’t see beyond the youth market. Still seeking a publisher but it’s very disheartening.

  • Amy Wright says:

    Your sentiment about the “narrow shelf” reminds me of Kay Ryan’s poem, “Ledge,” and of how she too kicked out of the box to become a new model. Hope you become another!

  • Reblogged this on West to West and commented:
    I was able to blog about my favorite AWP panel for Brevity. More AWP Seattle recappage soon! Enjoy!

  • Julie Graham says:

    Beautiful! I am inspired today, thanks to this post.

  • Darcy Alsop says:

    Tabitha,
    I was lucky enough to sit in on the same panel and left with a renewed sense of self and a collective feeling of empowerment for our sisters in scribe. The whole energy of the panel inspired me so much, I went back to my hotel room and immediately began writing. Thanks for sharing your personal experience, it was so nice to see that someone else felt the same way I did, I think it’s fair to assume that every woman (and the few men) sitting in the room felt the same way. Looking forward to reading your memoir.
    Best,
    Darcy Alsop

    • Darcy, I felt the exact same way! I wanted to somehow corral all the attendees into a bar or mountain retreat so we could keep the conversation going. Oh well, the moment was an unforgettable one, and I’m glad you were part of the hive too!

  • Reblogged this on A View From the Hill and commented:
    Why would you limit yourself to only one genre? or one gender? Why is there still a distinction between female and male writers?

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