Dear Muse
December 1, 2017 § 24 Comments
By Marla Mulloy
Write a letter to your muse, my writer friend said, in answer to my sad, self-loathing, whine about the writing life. So I did. I was mad.
Dear Muse,
I haven’t heard from you for a long time. I wonder, are you having a nice time on your little holiday? You must be having a holiday; you are certainly not paying any attention to me. Perhaps you are on a beach somewhere in the sun, reading something that someone has actually written? Or maybe you are simply watching people cavort in the sand or wander by the ice cream store, bored silly by my procrastination and delusion. I realize I wasn’t the easiest charge you’ve had. I realize I was hard to motivate, boring to watch. Most likely, you are in my living room sitting in that chair that I placed near the small table where I put the candles and the incense and made space for my yoga mat, under the hanging branches of the Norfolk pine. You are occupying that chair that I placed in this inspirational place for the purpose of writing. Yes, likely you are there, grinning at me as I try to be a writer, waiting for me to just sit down and write. I know I need to do this every day. I know. Many great writers have told me this lately, in their own writing. It is not magic, it is discipline. It is loving the discipline and then reveling in the magic of it.
I lived in Niagara on the Lake one summer, actually two summers, but one in particular involved writing. I wrote three stories that summer. I wrote and rewrote them by hand. On paper. With a pen. I spent afternoons in the Niagara on the Lake library looking up places and facts. I did research. At a library. In books. I wrote about what I knew. Fathers and daughters. Infidelity. And the clumsiness which is sometimes present in finding balance in a new relationship. I was purposeful and true. I even brought one of those stories, submitted it actually, to a writer in residence at the Toronto Public Library – the massive downtown branch that had everything from a bustling children’s section to a reverent, silent reference section that required awe and confidence to even consider entering, as well as permission from the steely woman at the desk. It had a most comprehensive theatre section. I knew about this because my fiancé and all his theatre colleagues would talk about it when they wanted to sound sharp and academic. So I went to see the “writer-in-residence” and I cannot remember a thing he said. And then I got married, I went to work at my new job, I had children and that was that.
So now, oh muse, I must begin again. Or, rather, continue. I am trying. I am thinking about writing a lot. I am waiting for you, looking for you. And I guess what you are telling me is that I cannot wait for you to show up and inspire me. I must just do it and do it some more, actually write words on paper, and you will poke your head in now and then and encourage me. Or laugh at me. Or help me laugh at myself.
Will you steer me or simply stare me into action? I’m going, I’m going.
Regards and love,
Marla
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Marla Mulloy is an aspiring writer with an evolving collection of poems and stories, one of which has recently been published in The Timberline Review. She has been a teacher and now works with refugees in Calgary. Much of her writing reflects the experience of refugees, documenting through story the paths that brought them here and how they create home in new places. She continues to share her writing through her blog: www.tossingwords.wordpress.com
Good work.
Thank you, Jan. Appreciate the appreciation!
Reblogged this on Write, Already! and commented:
The struggle is real. Maria Mulloy’s post speaks to my procrastinating soul…
Nice to meet you – I have left a reply on your site. Apparently, procrastinating souls are creative and productive. Who knew!
Greetings, Marla! Your words spoke to my soul. Thanks so much–and I’m doing my best to win back my meandering muse.
This is just lovely.
Thanks, Amy.
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Loved the real library research. Shame on your muse–I think you nailed her exactly.
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This writer even used a library. (I like that part.) her search for her muse rings true-even for people who blog.
A library. Quite a lovely concept, isn’t it? I enjoyed scrolling through your word wizardry and library lounging. Thanks!
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Maria. I loved this piece. It rang so true for me. And undoubtedly many others. Thank you for that little shake.
Marla, not Maria. I need new glasses. Sorry.
Hello Juliet. (Clearly I am catching up on my replies and responses today, as this is the third time I have communicated with you in the last couple of hours!). Funny story… my very first published short story (last year) was published under the name Maria (not Marla). Boo hoo! I now print my name in caps in my initial communications.
This is great! I hope you find your muse. I see mine occasionally but she only comes out at 2am or when I’m in the shower.
No kidding. Or when I am doing three things at once with not a
pen or a paper in sight.
Reblogged this on Not really that creative and commented:
A lot has been written over the years about the difficulty of getting started, or maybe getting re-inspired after a hiatus, but nevertheless this post really resonated with me. I am only too conscious that reading about writing is also just another form of procrastination but it’s more fun than doing the ironing.
Haha! Thanks for the feedback and the repost, Margaret. My daughter lives in Australia – I think that is where you are writing from? I have a post a few months back when I visited her there and ambled from Brisbane to Melbourne where she is currently living.
Yes I live approximately halfway between Melbourne and Sydney.
This part was excellent and what a way to end this piece:
90 percent loaded.
Curious about the work you do and will visit your blog to read more.
Signed,
Kerry from three provinces over.
This line…
Will you steer me or simply stare me into action? I’m going, I’m going.
Thanks, Kerry!
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Very Instructive Tale in today’s re-blog………